1st entry today.

Ok...so I have been attempting to work on portion sizes. as a person that it ednos (eating disorder not specified, it's a person that is not anorexic, bullimic, or compuslive overeater by the definition. Often EDNOS people are a combo of all of them or swing through all of them.) I have no idea about "normal" portion sizes. I am either a binger, or starving. So to attempt to eat a normal portion of a junkie food is tough. Heck, normal food portions are tough too.

So get this...say I convince myself that it is ok to eat some frito's. Here are the options of sizes, the BIG Big BAG (like you might buy for a party) The "BIG GRAB", and the tiny size. The tiny size says that it is 1 portion. That seems right. But the BIG GRAB size is marketed as a portion, but says like 2 or 3 portions. A person prone to binge eating cannot eat just one portion and put that bag away. How many normal people eat just a portion? Or even eat the whole thing and think of it as eating 3 portions, and adjsut their intake of other food to accomodate that. *Sigh*

And in magazines they tell you that meat (though I don't eat it) shoudl be the size of a deck of cards for 1 portion, butter/margerine is the size of a die, and a tennis ball is the size of a portion of pasta, or rice. However, the world does not allow us these portions on a normal basis...it seems we have been trained to over eat. Can you even order a steak the size of a deck of cards? And when you go to ihop, the plop of butter on your pancakes is the size of a ping pong ball...not a die. And the tennis ball...we won't even begin to go into that one!

A can of soda is one portion. A bottle is 2. It's next to impossible to find a good selection of canned sodas in a gas station anymore. And soda has at least 110 cals per can (unless you go for diet!)

I have never understood portions. Not at all. But then again, I grew up trained to over eat. Full heaping plates of hamburger helper at 7. 4 Poptarts covered in cheese (yes cheese) for breakfast. A whole medium sausage pizza for dinner every friday at age 11.

When you binge a portion is a package.

When you starge a portion is one bite.

When you puke portions don't matter...you flush the evidence that a portion ever existed.

When you are trying to be normal...when you really never have been, how do you find the happy medium?

-Perfectbone

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